Hiya! So here I am. My very first blog post. I’ve been threatening to do this for quite some time, but have only just managed to pluck up the courage needed to put finger to keyboard.
So, who the hell am I and what have I got that’s worth blogging about I hear you ask? Well, they are very good questions…….
I think I’ll go with the who am I one first because I think it might be the easiest to answer. So, I’m Amy. I’m Welsh (fiercely so!) although I lose my Welsh cred a bit when I let slip that I’ve been living in Truro, Cornwall for the last 16 years. (Has to be said though, ‘tis a bleddy ansome place to live!!!) I’m married to a gorgeous fella, with a massive beard called Ben (my husband is called Ben. Not his beard. That would just be weird) and we have two wonderful, crazy, funny, stubborn and off the wall kids. My boy is 7 and my girl is 4. So still young enough to be a bit of a handful, but as the littlie started school last September, they are taking up far less of my time than they did when they were both at home all day.
I am *a-hem* in my (very) late 30’s, and am trying really, really hard to be uber positive and upbeat about this “next phase of my life” (ie. exiting my 30’s) but I am equal parts freaked out and very blasé about it. But to be honest with you, I think that the general gist is that it’s a good thing, because I guess its what has brought me to this point……
So, now for the next question. What the hell do I plan this blog to be about? Well, where do I start? In the briefest of terms, I guess it’s mainly about my journey to finally make friends with my body and eventually to become a holistic health coach. A HOLISTIC HEALTH COACH????!!! Yes, there. I said it! A Holisitic Health Coach. No, I’d never heard of one before this year either, but now I am fully on board!! I’m sure I’ll tell you more about this in a later post.
You see, here’s the thing…..I have been battling with my body for pretty much my entire life. For as far back as I can remember, I have been overweight. And maybe more crucially, I have always been desperately aware of, and embarrassed about being overweight. I could tell you my story in painstaking detail but I’m not sure anyone else would find it very interesting. Because the fact of the matter is, we all have a story. And I know that for a lot of people who might well be reading this blog, their story is probably incredibly similar to mine. Don’t get me wrong, if you really do want to hear all about my weight and body issues in all of their gory detail, I would be more than happy to string together an extra post about it, but at the moment, I guess I’ll just skip to the end….
I’ve spent the last 30 odd years on (or OFF!) some sort of diet. Yes, you read that right. I first joined Weightwatchers when I was in primary school! You name it, I’ve tried it. Probably more than once. Lighterlife, Slimming World, cabbage soup, British Heart foundation, 5:2, Body Coach……..I could keep going for quite some time! I’ve spent countless thousands of pounds on the next miracle fix, countless hours obsessing over food and calorie/syn/point/macro contents, shed countless tears over my ‘hideous’ reflection and I have finally come to the conclusion that IT HAS GOT TO STOP! And it feels fitting that the year I turn 40 is a pretty good time to finally make friends with myself.
Now this in itself is progress, because every other year I’d have been saying “I have to lose 4 stone by my birthday” but this year, something has changed. If I’m going to be completely honest with you and put all of my cards on the table, I have to say that if I could wake up tomorrow morning and miraculously be 4 stone thinner, with no exercise, diet or illness responsible, I would not knock it back, but do you know what…..? In the absence of such miracles, I’ve come to the realisation that I just need to stop fighting with ME. I am sick to the back teeth of hating myself. Of focusing on what a failure I am. Of obsessing over my “disgusting” body. Guess what? This is the only body I’m ever going to have and I’ve been pretty horrible to her over the last 39 years, and it has taken me this long to realise that its about bloody time that that shit changed!!!
So, here I am. Not only am I doing it, but I’m also blogging about it hoping that some of you will be interested enough to follow my journey and maybe even to hop on board with me and give it a go yourselves!
Vive la revolution!!!!